RELENTLESS GRIEF (#3) Sacrifice of Chronic Illness

So, here I am grieving once more.  How much grief can one person take?  Apparently quite a bit!  I can never seem to get past grief.  That is my life due to the fact that my body is continually beating itself up with auto-immune diseases.  Each time I get a new diagnosis or a new complication from my sicknesses I have to endure more despair.

I have experienced so many losses.  What more will happen to my body from all my illnesses?  I now have Psoriatic Arthritis which may be causing degeneration of my spine and damage to my joints while the Fibromyalgia at times causes my muscles to ache.  Will I one day become completely dependent on others to care for me?  Maybe.  But I cannot have fear. As I have already learned fear holds one back from living.

For now, I can still function and care for myself.  So, I will continue helping others when I can instead of feeling like I should.  I will continue working and writing with hopes of encouraging others.  When I am frustrated or angry I will use meditation to center myself and not loose focus.  I will use the spiritual energy from my parents to carry on–marching forward.  And I will spread the love of God to others.  As the song says, “…they will know we are Christians by our love…”

 

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4 thoughts on “RELENTLESS GRIEF (#3) Sacrifice of Chronic Illness

  1. Danya, you are an amazing person and deserve to be a #1 Best-selling author some day. It is very brave of you to share your life story with others.

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  2. Danya. Thank you for bringing to the surface so many diseases and conditions that many experience but are unwilling to share. You are a courageous, strong woman who is determined to have success. Just never forget how much God loves you in spite of the trials you face. I pray for you daily.

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