This month we celebrate Valentine’s Day. This is a special day we sent aside to recognize the love we receive from those we cherish in our lives. For Christians, Jesus provides unconditional love and grace. He shines a light of hope and promises eternal life to those who believe in him. Recently, during Christmastime, my Small Group Sunday School class at my church was talking about Jesus, the light of the world. It is written in the Bible:
I Am the Light of the World
12 Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
This verse radiates with me as I am reminded of a very dark time during my second hospitalization due to Major Depression. I was in the hospital and so distraught about being there. I was trying to convince everyone I didn’t need to be there. I felt like I was at the bottom of well. It was pitch dark blackness, I felt like the walls were closing in around me and there was no way out. After being in the hospital a couple of days I realized I wasn’t going home. I was weary and needed something to do so I was going to ask for reading material. All of a sudden, I realized I didn’t have my bible and I had not spoken to God since I had been there. I was so consumed by darkness, I had forgotten about God, how terrible am I?! Instantly I saw light shinning down from the top of the well, a light of hope for survival. I felt warm, I could breathe again, and I felt loved. I realized God wanted me to be in the hospital. He sent me there for a reason. I began participating in group therapy and soon I was released with a renewed since of being.
I have been though several other rounds of Depression since then but I always have the light of Jesus with me as my guide. This reminds me of Psalm 23:4, 4 “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me”.
Dear Jesus, in the darkest moments you are always with me shinning Your light to guide me out of despair. How foolish am I not to have you on my mind all day? I seek your wisdom and guidance and am grateful for your grace and love. I fear though, for times when I do not follow your path but you, my Lord never abandon me. Even in my most rebellious moments, you are next to me. Oh how I wish all who I love here on Earth find the friendship and love I have with your divine presence! Oh, how I love thee Lord Jesus! My friend, my comforter, my counselor, my guide, my light. I pray that others see your light that is within me.
(Matthew 5: 14-16) 14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.